on life, music etc beyond mainstream


That what it‘s all about. No doubt it‘ll all end up in tears. Or sudden death, tears only for the leftovers. Death by chocolate, death by wrong time, wrong place. Or you‘ll see the golden light, but it‘s all endorphines, morphines, and the brain protecting you a last time before the curtain‘s falling. You won’t see anyone again really. There may be an afterglow, but it‘s a matter of seconds, though the tricky neurochemical game of passing away forever might suggest eternity. So many people are trapped by illusions of an afterlife. Come on, Laurie Anderson: The Tibetan Book Of The Dead. Really? But, then again, how long did it take for Sawyer, Kate, Juliet, and all the others on the island, to realize that they ARE dead? In other words, LOST. So, no doubt the six seasons of one of the best TV shows ever are a second version of the Tibetans‘ survival manual. We better start asking some essential questions now. What is life all about? NO! Why are you still worried? YES! Worried about what? YES! The sound of someone going away? YES! They are all going away all the time. It happens every moment. Marriage doesn’t work either (rare enough). Too many miserable safety nets. Safety is the big illusion. See what happened to Satie when he had been striving for recognition – the hell of dead music! So the real question is: when do you start living? Or to make it utterly simple (from my basic lessons as a life coach): when do you start this fabulous day? Because, being dead will be easy anyway for a very long time. You think this guy is some hardcore atheist! No, I do believe in angels, for example. Yes, you can see them everywhere, just open your eyes. They don‘t do a very good job most of the time, they drink too much, they prefer escapism, tropical island discotheques, and some real good fuckin‘. They are humans in the end. Heaven is the place where nothing really happens. So here we are, down to earth, and you listen to a piece of music titled „The sound of someone you love who’s going away, and it doesn‘t matter“.


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  1. Brian Whistler:

    What a great read with my morning coffee! I feel extra alive and it’s not just the caffeine.

  2. Michael Engelbrecht:

    Well, not everyone will share your enthusiasm, Brian :)

    There was a bit much Christmas, Opera and Martin Luther recently on the blog, even critical words on a fantastic Krautrock selection … so this had had to be said to put things in balance :)

    In fact this can work as psychedelic coffeine.

    By the time you‘re reading this, I‘m in California. To be more precise, the great crime novel I‘m just reading sends me there, and it‘s burning down the hills in Ross Macdonald‘s „The Underground Man“ from 1971.

  3. Hans-Dieter Klinger:

    I never felt the manafonistic world being out of balance. Maybe I’m the only one.

  4. Michael Engelbrecht:

    Don‘t miss the humour :)

    Addendum on Simon Jeffes, true story:

    In 1972 a young British composer was in the South of France. He had eaten bad fish and became very ill and then had a recurring vision of a hotel where everything was scanned by an electronic eye. Several rooms: in one room two people were fucking, kind of cold fucking.

    In another room full of electronic equipment a composer was listening through earphones, but all was silence. Next day the young man felt better, went to the beach sunbathing, and suddenly a poem poped into his head. The first lines:

    „I`m the proprietor of the Penguin Cafe, I will tell you things at random.“

    Years later, I met Simon Jeffes in London and he told me the story of the poem. It was all about the unexpectedness, the unknown, the killing of dead patterns and dead rituals, the irrationality, and how that makes life precious.

  5. Hans-Dieter Klinger:


  6. Michael Engelbrecht:

    Everyone who wants to see LOST shouldn‘t read this BEFORE having seen the last episode of the final season.

    I always thought that you have your most indluential TV experiences at quite young age, but the revolution that has been televised during the last two, three decades (starting with Northern Exposure, Twin Peaks and The X-Files) proved me wrong.

  7. Joanie Rotten:

    Was für eine beschwingte Eloge auf das Loslassen, was für ein grobneurologischer Umgang mit der Transzendenz … Du bist doch sonst nicht so …

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